I’ve been gone for a while but I’ll hopefully come back soon. Some stuff happened in my everyday life that’s kept me super busy and I haven’t been blogging like I should.
But this is something that needed to be put down.
For the last 2.5-3 months, I’ve been on new medications. I had resisted changing anything meds wise for such a long time because I spent a good few years of my childhood watching doctors put my brother on so many different medications that changed him in ways that terrified me.
I resisted taking any medication at all for a long time, but necessity trumps fear.
Anyway, my doctor decided that enough was enough and I needed to supplement my current meds to get out of the depression and anxiety pit I’d fallen into.
I should take her flowers, really. I feel better for the first time in a decade. I had forgotten how it felt to not be anxious and sad. I can binge-watch netflix now, and not just the comedy shows. I can binge-watch Supernatural and Daredevil and Jessica Jones. I can go watch a movie when it comes out instead of waiting till I’m stable enough to handle explosions.
I feel well and adjusted. It’s truly remarkable.
I’m really hoping that I’ll be able to get back to writing again when I’m not so insanely busy. I can move forward on things and make changes and move and talk to people. It’s fantastic.
I’ll be seeing my doctor at some point this month so she can write me a full year prescription. Things are good and that’s something I never thought I’d say again.